are we coming or going?

Time really flies by.......

2009-10-12T16:58:00.004-06:00

Wow! It has been quite a long time since I have posted anything. I guess blogging isn't very high on my list of priorities these days.
We are all doing well, getting ready for the long long long winter. It has started to get pretty cold and it has snowed a couple of times even though I begged and begged for it not to happen.
Halloween is coming up right around the corner and Grammy and Pappy got Elijah a Football player costume from the Broncos game last night. Elijah is excited, to say the least.
This year he will have a better grasp of trick-or-treating now that he is the ripe old age of 3.

Here are a couple of pictures of the past couple of months of our growing boy.

Maybe inspiration will hit me and I will blog more...........we shall see
xoxoxoxo
t

Sometimes you have to tell a sad story.

2009-06-01T12:18:00.002-06:00

This past few months have been pretty difficult for me. There has been so much going on and I feel like I may have put my emotions aside so it would be possible for me to "go on" with my life.

I have realized that going on with my life is not as easy as I thought it would be.

In Early March we had a miscarriage. It was terrible. It was painful. It was messy. I took a week off of work and then went on with my life like nothing had happened..at least on the outside.

Last week we found out that again we had lost a baby. I had to have a d&c on Friday, which was not as easy as I had hoped. The good part about it is that I didn't have to see anything. The bad part about it is that I didn't have to see anything.

I have a bicorunate uterus. Which means it is shaped like a heart. A friend of mine wrote to me "A heart shaped uterus? How can such a lovely shape cause such sorrow?" I kind of think anything that a heart is involved with causes so much pain as well as happiness.

It has been 3 days since my procedure and the cramping is subsiding but the emptiness seems to be creeping in, no matter how hard I am fighting it.

I have a little boy to think of, I can not take time out to be selfish and sad. I have to make sure he is ok. I have playing to do and housework to do. My heart isn't in it though. As much as I try to push myself to do my normal thinks, it is not working. I can't seem to bring myself to catch up laundry or do the dishes. I feel like it will all still be there later.

I had a terrible experience with the doctor's office which has not helped my emotional state. I was made to feel like it was just another "oh, well" situation. It is far from that. These were my children. These were my flesh and blood. Why would someone try to downplay that? What is wrong with people?

So many people that I know, have gone through this very sad situation. I guess I never thought that I would have these problems. Coming from a huge family, it never occurred to me that this could happen, until it happened.

I am not mad or jealous of my friends that have had good pregnancies, because I have had one myself. Maybe I am only meant to have one child on this earth, and for that I am blessed and grateful.

I just wish God would reveal just a little tiny bit of his plan for me so I could see some kind of light at the end of the tunnel.

For now, there is no light at the end of the tunnel, just an oncoming train.

xo
T

The zoo is always fun:)

2009-05-20T14:09:00.005-06:00

Last week Elijah, My friend Becca, and her daughter Sofia went to the Denver Zoo. We had a really good time!

I have been very bad about blogging lately. So sorry. There has been a lot going on! More to come soon:)

I am still alive, I promise.

2009-02-16T10:31:00.002-07:00

Things have been very crazy around the Losh house these days. Sam and I have both been working every available hour that we can, which leaves us very little time with each other.

The Destroyer got his first real injury this past week. His new job path is "potion master". This boy fills everything up with water that can hold water. He puts toothpaste, shampoo, 25 dollar jars of saffron, mouthwash, ketchup...anything he can manage to sneak by me into his mix. He then finds another container and swishes the potion back and forth...this is normally great fun....

I was making Chili and had opened a couple of cans of whole tomatoes. The Destroyer swiped a can a went hauling ass into my bathroom where he thought he would "work". I heard a scream of death and ran into my bathroom. He was there flailing his hand and red sauce was going everywhere...I then realized that it wasn't sauce.

I tried to get the bleeding to stop for almost a half an hour. I consulted my M-I-L and we ran down the street to the doctors office. They squeezed us in immediately.

No stitches, but a nasty deep cut on his right pointer finger. This cut went strait to the bone... yucky.

We still have to bandage it up with a pressure bandage every morning, but all is pretty much back to normal, as normal as we can get at least.

I hope everyone is well and enjoying themselves as much as possible!

xoxo
T

Organized Chaos..

2009-01-07T11:33:00.003-07:00

I have been sick since Sunday. I am starting to feel a little bit better, but sleep is all I really want to do.
My house looks like a tornado hit it. For whatever reason, if I am sick, no one can find the trash can or the clothes hamper. The dishwasher becomes invisible and the kitchen counter becomes a place of refuge for a mountain dew graveyard.
I still know where everything is. I can still jump up and find anything that you need. No one else can do these things. I must be a superhero. I wish my superhero powers would kick this sickness out of me so my life can be put back into motion.

I am tired.

I need some DayQuil and a shot of espresso.

Ha.. spell check just tried to change DayQuil to Tequila... that would do as well:)

xo
T

Fun in the snow

2008-12-29T16:21:00.001-07:00

kids are awesome.

2008-12-23T14:49:00.005-07:00

Elijah likes my boots!

Lovin the web cam! You can see his goose egg really well in this picture!

EVERYONE needs to get a web cam so you can talk to this amazin boy!! He blows my mind everyday. I fall more and more in love with him everyday.

Elijah likes chicken... A LOT .. he always wants chicken

last night I was making chicken and he says..

word for word..

E "Mama chicken??:(jumping up and down)

T "yes baby"

E "Mammaaaa........??"

T "what?E "mamma chicken Wizsha????"(dancing around the kitchen)

T "yes baby"E mamma tatoes??? (very very seriously)

T "mashed tatoes with Gravy!"

E "HECK YEAH, MAMMA!!!! (jumping and dancing and hugging my legs over and over again)

People without kids are really missing out:)

First "real" haircut

2008-12-11T15:52:00.007-07:00

Handsome boy! with a new hairct

Before:

This morning was definitely one for the books.

The destroyer usually sits there and watches me blow dry my hair and waits patiently for his turn.

Today, as I am starting the drying process, I turn to my right and see that he has pulled most of the toilet paper off of the roll and put it in the toilet. Awesome.

He sees me.........I see him............He takes off running like a gazelle and slams right into the half open door of the the bathroom.

This not only really hurts, it really pissed him off that he didn't pull a fast one on me! ha

The worst part is that I couldn't even get mad about the disgusting mess that I have not to clean up, but I sat there holding him and letting him know that everything was OK.

I think this one might have taught him that toilet paper lesson... we will see.

We finally got out of the house and I clearly tell him.."no more shenanigans today, Sir"!

We went to Wells Fargo to deposit Sam's check that FINALLY got here.

They have a giant stuffed HORSE at Wells Fargo.

This is not a good idea, Wells Fargo!

Elijah loved this horse and thought it should be his. He thought this very loudly in the lobby of the bank.

After minimal embarrassment, I convince him that might get one for Christmas and he agrees to leave.

As we are walking out, This sad little boy with a huge goose egg on his forehead turns to say one last goodbye to his horse and SMACK!!!! right into the deposit slip table.!!!!!!! CRAP!!!!!!!!

We made it out of the bank in almost one piece and walk down to the haircutting place.

Nicole was a brave girl, she jumped in at the challenge to cut a 2 year old boys hair.

It really went well until the end and I had to sit in the chair with him in order to finish..

This was not the best of days for our little guy, but he looks super cute!

Our first football game, having kids makes you goofy.

2008-12-09T14:42:00.006-07:00

Some of you maybe saying to yourself, I have seen these pictures already...
This is because as my cousin Matt says "Having Kids makes you goofy".
I have posted the full photo album on Kodak gallery and sent them out to most of my family.
I have posted most of the pictures on Myspace and Facebook, for my long lost friends to see.
I am now blogging about them on blogger...
I guess I have to make sure that everyone knows what is going on in my life with out having to actually call anyone.
I love you all! T

Elijah passed out after the exciting game.

Playing in front of the Stadium "bid rocks"

Clapping for EVERYONE!!!

You are getting very sleepy.....................

yes, we really do things together..

Broncos running on to the field.

concern over the overwhelming loudness.. he got used to it and loved it!

so tired by the end

christmas decorating!

2008-12-04T11:06:00.002-07:00

Challenge....

2008-11-25T11:37:00.007-07:00

This is why I get zero sleep.............Both of my boys sleep like this.

He LOVES to blowdry his hair... what a freak-o.

Sorry it has taken me so long to post anything! I have been in a funk and really didn't have anything good or exciting to share with anyone:)

Now that things are back to normal, I thought I should post a few pictures of the Destroyer.

Sam got a new job this past week, working for Summit County Recycling. This was the best early Christmas present ever!

Speaking of Christmas, How is it almost here? I can't believe that it will be time to put up our tree this weekend!

I think Elijah is really going to enjoy putting the tree up and decorating. This year will be the best yet, since he will understand a little more and will be able to participate.

Christmas is a difficult time for me, but since Elijah was born it has become a really exciting and meaningful time.

These kids really do take over every aspect of your life. I never thought that I would be able to let go of a lot of the ill feelings that I was harboring deep down.

Elijah has really changed my heart. I finally know what the "Christmas Spirit" is and I actually feel it...

Here is your challenge............tell me why Christmas is important to you............I am waiting..............................................

Halloween fun....

2008-11-07T15:51:00.004-07:00

This year we took Elijah Trick or Treating for the first time!

He only got scared one time! Alma, CO has an event called "Trick or Trunk". People park at town hall and give out candy from their trunks. So much fun!

Here is our Christmas card:)

Colleen and I are waiting for the kids to come to the truck for candy.

We really had a good time this year. When we got home we had trick or treaters until 8:30.

October is COLD!

2008-10-13T18:26:00.004-06:00

The title of this blog has nothing to do with it's content. It is just a statement. A harsh reality that is my life.........cold weather. Yes, the winter is peaking it's ugly face around the corner. The aspen trees are no longer a glorious painting of yellow and orange. Those once mesmerizing leaves, lay dead on the ground of my yard, waiting for someone to rake them up to be sent to their grave.

October has come and it almost half way over, and I have just realized that it is here. I am finally writing 10 on my checks instead of 9. This is a record for me, it usually takes me until the last week of the month to get it right.

The Destroyer is finding more and more creative ways to get into mischief. I think I am managing it with some sort of confidence and consistency. I am still in the middle of turmoil within myself of the correct discipline to administer for different offenses. Hopefully, this time of 'Darkness' will not last tooo long.

The next dilemma.........Halloween.

Should we go out or stay in? Halloween has become such a drunken, reckless night for adults these days. Luckily most people are not out and about at the time of trick or treating.

Some say that we shouldn't let our kids participate in festivities at all because of the 'demonic' blah blah blah.. I say dress up, get candy, get cavities and enjoy being a kid for as long as you can! We all know that I am not a religious fanatic, so those guys can stay in and be grumpy and pray for us sinners out with our kids having a blast!

Last year, we stayed in and handed out candy. The Destroyer, Sam and I really had fun doing that. Our small community really had quite a trick or treating turn out. I am not sure if The Destroyer would 'get' trick or treating. He may just enjoy giving candy to ghosts and goblins all night again. I will let you, my loyal readers, know as soon as we decide! :)

This past weekend we had a birthday dinner for Grammy and Pappy at our house. I made a strawberry custard short cake volcano cake.. I know, I am kickass...:) It actually came out rather well.

I am posting some pics of the cake and also of our future musician, and Sam and The Destroyer playing Star Wars on the Wii.

Hope all is well

fun in the fall

2008-10-03T10:57:00.004-06:00

elijah, Nina and Toby

Elijah, Nina, Toby and Leah

Nina is fearless!

Posing for Mama

You would never think that this sweet looking boy would be such a hellion!

Dillon Dam road on Thursday.

Tyler, madison and Elijah crashing.

I officially know nothing about anything

2008-09-29T12:23:00.002-06:00

I wish I truly knew all of the things I thought I knew when I was younger. All of the things when I wasn't a parent that I said I would never do flash like a old black and white movie through my head.

My reality is not anything that I thought it would be. Not that I don't love every second of my wonderful, terrifying and fulfilling life.

Elijah...(known hereafter only as The Destroyer) has taught me more about life in two short years then I could have ever wanted to know.

Stay at home moms do not get the credit they deserve. No,I do not hold a paying full time job. I do not contribute much money to the household bank account.
If I were to be paid for what I do, I would expect that we would be quite financially stable, with no debt to speak of. If you do the math, local daycare workers get paid $11 an hour...11 dollars an hour x 24 hours a day x 763 days of The Destroyers life =$201,432..........that ain't pocket change!

I wrote a blog not too long ago that I deleted because it was a harsh and ill-thought out rant. I am sure it offended some, and made some laugh. I deleted it because after some comments from my Aunt Loretta (who has 6 children and knows more then I) made me think about the other side of things and also take a step back at my iron-clad ideas.

I have learned that you can't have many iron-clad ideas with kids. Your ideas are more like jello that hasn't quite set.

I have learned that there are people that know more then me about everything. I just need to tap into those resources more often. I need to step back and evaluate what is and isn't working in my parenting practices.

I do know that by nap time everyday, I look like I have been climbing through the sewer system.
My face undoubtedly has some kind of condiment or dirt smeared on it. My hair is falling out of the ponytail that I put in when I woke up. My t-shirt is stained with gross boogers, or previously stated condiments and or dirt. It is only noon. I have only one child.

I tell ya, these terrible two's are kicking my butt. My sweet, soft natured, little baby boy has turned into a fit having, unreasonable, destroyer of all.

I am trying to use patience, love and understanding during this time. This is not working.
Actually, NOTHING is working. Time out is worse on me then him. Standing there holding him still until he calms down does nothing more then give me a backache and headache. Spanking is my last resort these days, but is not fruitful either. Reasoning... with a 2 year old? Yes, I tried it... I might as well of tried to train a frog to dance.

My cousin's husband has coined this time frame in a child's life as "the darkness" This is the most accurate description that I have ever heard..... and I have a semi-well behaved child.

They say that God only gives you as much as you can handle. I hope that He schedules an intervention with The Destroyer very soon.

Motherhood is the most exhausting thing that I have tried to tackle. If I could go back and give myself advice 2 years ago, I would tell myself to go ahead and line a room in my house with padding and sound proof walls.. I could use one of those right now.

potty training is not as fun as you might think!

2008-08-29T10:01:00.005-06:00

I have decided to forego the pull up stage and go straight to big boy underwear.

I have asked my mother in law if I could have her steam cleaner on standby.

I bought some urine carpet cleaning spray.

Ready.........set................go..............

Day 1 is going pretty well. We have gone through 3 pairs of Elmo underwear or "pannies" as Elijah calls them.. Thanks to Pappy.

I has been somewhat of a struggle to get him to tell me before he has to go. So, I am asking him every 5 minutes if he has to go. He has gone 3 times today, receiving 6 m&m's and lots of excitement and praise.

My question is this, How long will I have to get super excited when he goes to the potty? Will he be 15 years old and refuse to go unless he gets lots of praise and a treat?

Maybe I am going about this all wrong, but I just can't see paying $15 for a bag of pull ups that will only last a week. A box of 88 Pampers cruisers is only 21 bucks and that lasts almost 2 weeks.

I am a cheap lady these days.

Maybe I shouldn't be pushing the issue at all. Maybe he wants to keep wearing diapers and be my baby just a little while longer. I am so ready to be free of changing them though.

If I have to spend the next week on my hands and knees scrubbing carpet and tile, that is what I am prepared to do.

We will see how long this lasts... I will keep you posted.

Any suggestions are always welcome!

xo-

The best two years of my life.......

2008-08-11T13:13:00.006-06:00

update of sorts

2008-08-11T11:10:00.004-06:00

I feel like I have been running around with my head cut off lately. In addition to being a full time stay at home mom, housewife, errand runner and problem solver.. I am still doing my real estate assisting work and working at Wasabi's waiting tables on Wednesdays. I just got an offer to work at South Park Saloon, bartending and waiting tables one or two nights a week. I don't know how I can turn it down because of the money aspect, but I don't know if I can physically do it!

We are getting ready for the big number 2 birthday. The decorations have been purchased and the BBQ is ready to go for the most part! I hope it is a blast for Elijah. Grammy bought a little toddler pool and we are going to try to find a sprinkler. Kids love water... right?

I will of course keep you updated on the party!

My cousin Amber is in Labor right now!!! Yay! Hopefully tomorrow I will have some pictures to post of the darling Isaiah Anania!!

I finally got my camera to work!! Guess what it took???? Batteries! that 's right. I guess the last batch that I bought were duds. I tried to put the ones from the remote in the camera and now it works.. the remote is a needed casualty.

That's all for now, I will keep you posted on the comings and goings of our little clan.

xo
T

boys

2008-07-25T20:17:00.004-06:00

Elijah is a spider monkey. He climbs things all the time.

He was recently climbing on my dresser and lost his footing and opened a drawer and fell. Landing with all of his weight on the top of his left foot, he screamed in pain.

I was able to calm him down and get him down for a much needed nap.

Twenty minutes into his nap he awoke crying in pain...off to the ER to get an xray.. here we go!

Luckily there was little going on in the ER and we were in and out in 2 hours. Luckily nothing was broken.

These boys, I tell ya!

uncle.........

2008-07-11T09:33:00.002-06:00

My back is doing very very well.

I have had no problems with daily life or working at my new waitressing job at a sushi restaurant in Breck.

I had a great night last night at work, no problems, no straining, no catastrophes. Home by 11:30 and in bed by midnight.

Two of my most loyal friends even came in to eat dinner in attempts to help me learn more about sushi and practice without pressure.

What a blessed and lucky girl I am.

Three Thirty in the morning I am brutally awakened by a small sharpened finger poking my sternum........juicejuicejuicejuicejuice

I sleepily get up and try to find a cup. I then proceed to water down some juice in hopes that I will be able to get not only the boy back to sleep but return to a much needed slumber myself.

I get the boy back in bed and decide that I too need a sip of something. I turn from the bed and lose my balance catching myself on the door and twist my right knee.

I fall to the ground as quietly as possible. The last thing I need is to wake anyone up.

I get back in bed forgoing the drink that I now desperately need.

I squeeze into the small spot left for me in my KING size bed.

6 am.............

juicejuicejuicejuice cuppycuppycuppycuppy

Forgetting the ordeal of the night in my comatose state, I get out of bed and immediately hit the ground in pain from my knee. I also notice that the right side of my neck is all cramped up.

Thanks for all the space.

My sprained knee and crick in my neck is really going to help me out cleaning the house, cooking and chasing the boy who runs around causing chaos non-stop.

Life happens right???

Everything has a lesson???

The lesson here is...................................................................................?

Do tell.

Busy weekend

2008-06-30T10:34:00.003-06:00

This weekend Sam and I got to go to our friend Matt and Colleen's wedding. We had such a good time! It was nice to be around adults and do adult things! The funny thing about it is that we talked about Elijah the entire time.

Grammy bought Elijah his first Tricycle this weekend. He loves it. He won't take off his helmet and has been riding it non-stop since this morning.

Job hunting

2008-06-27T08:44:00.001-06:00

I have been searching for a job that lets me come in after 5 or lets me work from home..........What the hell is the problem here? I think my only option is to wait tables until my business gets busy. I started a personal assistant business not too long ago and it is not doing as well as I would like. The real estate market is slow meaning I am slow.

Elijah has been running around like a mad man lately and has picked up some not so choice words. I am not sure how to correct this problem, everything I have tried has just made it worse.

Urgh.........

I just hope that while he is at Grammy's this weekend, he doesn't use the "s" word or the worse "F" bomb!!!

anyone anyone?

a little update

2008-06-24T11:16:00.003-06:00

Time is just flying by and once again I have been slacking on my blogging.. I will do better I will do better I will do better................................

Here are some pictures to tide you over:)

Finally spring..........sometimes

2008-05-21T09:53:00.003-06:00

The weather has decided that it would like to be warm... today. I am so sick of the snow! I don't care if it never ever snows again. If it snows again my son will drive me to the brink of insanity.

Now that Elijah has a taste of playing outside, there is no turning back. When he wakes up he anxiously runs to the living room and says "up" . He must have the blinds open so he can begin his nagging to "siiide". This does not stop until we go outside... then all hell breaks loose when it is time to go inside.

Most kids sit and stare blankly at the TV all day, not my boy. I should be happy about this but for some reason today, I really wish he was a TV boy!

I need to do laundry and mop my floors but instead we are getting ready to go on an adventure around the block. This makes him happy, therefore I am happy.. right.??

I have work to do and people to call and typing to finish... instead I am getting out the baby jogger and getting snacks together and diapers and such.

It looks like rain. But we will perservere! I will bundle that boy up and take him out if it kills me!

We get halfway to the post office and all I can hear from him is COOOODE!! Now he wants to go home cause he is cold.... I can't win

just a little something from the past couple of days

2008-05-11T22:26:00.003-06:00

We like to do pirate dancing around here.......it is in our blood!

Elijah recently got his first Snap on tool box. He loves it. His hotweels have a stylin garage for sure!

2008-05-09T12:30:00.005-06:00

Our trip to Texas was pretty successful.... Until I got strep throat! Sorry if I didn't get to see everyone while I was there, but by the time I left Austin I was pretty sick.

I did get to see some High school and College friends and their kids while I was in Austin. Angela, Sarah and I all have boys:) It seems like everyone is having boys these days!

Elijah had a really good time with all of his cousins and meeting his great-grandma Brown!

Sorry it has taken so long to post these, I will try to update more frequently!

miss Nina

2008-04-04T13:58:00.003-06:00

Miss. Nina is Elijah's girlfriend. Elijah talks about her incessantly. Every time he sees a blonde little girl, he points and says Nana. (which is what he calls her)

Last week we had the pleasure of Nina's company. Here are some pics from that day!

Waiting till the last minute once again.........

2008-04-04T13:47:00.005-06:00

Elijah and I are getting ready to go on the adventure of his little life! We are embarking on a road trip from Colorado to Texas.

My brave sister in law and Elijah and I will be leaving in the morning. We are very excited and anxious.

Packing for a 2 week trip with a 19 month old has proven to be a little tricky, I must confess. I should have started packing days ago. I am the queen procrastinator!

If I would have started packing say last weekend, I would have known that I have exactly 3 shirts that are both short sleeve and suitable for wear outside of the house.

I guess it really doesn't matter what I am wearing because I still have to wear this ridiculous back brace which pushes my fat roll above AND below it, creating a nice and attractive effect.

At least I have 7 or 8 pairs of shoes that I am bringing to balance out the 3 shirts!

I am such a train wreck!!

One less thing

2008-03-27T12:12:00.005-06:00

Dear God,

I decided that I was going to cut my son's mullet style hair today.

I have been asking my husband to do it for weeks, but last night he says "Why can't you just do it?".

Exactly.

So, before lunch and nap time today, I took out the fancy Conair Clippers and found guard #6 and 7. Elijah and I sat on my bath room floor, him in my lap, and began to cut. It was a fun task, I do admit. After doing his whole head with the #7 I decided that I would get fancy and try out the #6 on the sides and in the back.. I am awesome I know. That actually worked really well. Elijah just sat there giggling patiently. I then took the guard off and tried to line up the back of his neck.. again I rock..

Bath time!

I was washing his hair and I noticed that he had a little bit of blood on him.. I wiped it with a towel and sure enough there was about a 1 inch scratch where the clippers had clipped his little baby boy neck. He never let on that I was hurting him with this horrible machine! He is OK, but now I wonder what kinds of stories people will make up in their heads as they see it .

I tried to be a good mother and wife and just take care of it because as we both know, If I don't do it ..............

His dad is doing it next time.

Love,

Tiffany

Am I the only one out there who doesn't have it together?

2008-03-25T15:00:00.005-06:00

I wake up EVERY day at 6. It doesn't matter if I am sick or tired or recovering from major surgery.

I emerge from my bedroom to a disaster.

I make breakfast and turn on Playhouse Disney before doing anything else.

I start the dishes from the day before, because by the end of the previous day I was entirely to exhausted to do anything else before bed.

I pick up laundry, toys, goldfish, Cheerios, mangled grapes and what not from my living room and kitchen.

It is now 7 am.

I need a nap.

I continue to clean the kitchen, which never seems to stay clean for longer then 5 minutes.

I turn around from finishing dishes and such to find that the kitchen and living room floor is now once again covered in laundry, toys, shoes, goldfish, and scrambled eggs.

My $300 coach purse is hanging out of a cabinet with some sort of paste made of goldfish all over it.

I start over.

My wonderful and perfect little boy is patiently sitting on the couch with his cup, just as sweet as pie.... as poop oozes from his diaper all over my beige couch. Really?? Come on!

I get him cleaned up, the couch cleaned up for the 3rd time this week, and plop him in the living room so I can go to the bathroom for 2 seconds.

I of course cannot go to the bathroom by myself because God only knows what would happen if I didn't allow my son to come with me.

This cycle continues all day........

I make dinner, which always produces mad amounts of dishes even though there is only 3 of us.

There the dishes sit until tomorrow.

I haven't even touched laundry, bathrooms, floors or any kind of spring cleaning. I can hardly keep my living room and kitchen picked up.

I see these women with immaculate houses and perfectly organized lives.............I just can't seem to pull it all together!!!

a random rambling..........when synapses do not connect

2008-03-06T10:34:00.001-07:00

I am sitting here listening to the 'old skool rap sunday' playlist on my ipod.. Warren G is keeping me company whilst I take a rare moment to say hello to my loyal readers.
Do you ever just sit back and really miss the past? I have been having a lot of moments like that lately, hence the high school music mix. Although, high school is the last thing that I miss. Time has really just flown by in the last 5 years and I feel like I didn't stop to appreciate anything while I was there. That kind of freedom I can hope to see again in about 16.5 years............ I also know that there are fewer people around me that know what I mean if I say ........don't cry, dry your eye..And here comes your mother with those two little guys ..her mean mother steps then says to me "Hi!!"
I am getting old and boring. What the hell.. Did I grow up? not possible, I can still have fun.....................right??

minny minny and bops.. don't forget iggie

2008-02-29T15:43:00.002-07:00

Elijah has started to say a few recognizable words besides Mim (mom) and Daddy. He now sings minny minny (Handy Manny) yells BOPS!! (doodlebops) and iggie!!!! (wiggles).. These are the 3 shows we watch every single morning without fail. I wonder if it is bad that his first few words are all TV shows??? Not that I am in the running by any means for mother of the year! I am ready for the backlash! Give it to me, I can take it! I can't wait for summer. Big things await in the warm sunshine. I pledge to take Elijah to the park in the afternoons and swimming once a week. I can't have a TV monster already! He is only 18 months old!

Lots has gone on in the past month and a half since I have blogged. (sorry about that) I have been really trying to recover and get back to normal, but my blog has been neglected. We are home and settled back into a routine which is nice. I still can neither drive or pick up my son, but it works somehow that I stay home with him. God works in very mysterious ways indeed! I have kept my sanity during this painful time and had a lot of fun with my very curious and brave son! I swear he is going to break his neck one day jumping off the couch!! (any suggestions for that one are welcome)

Another wonderful thing has happened to us. My good friends Carmen and Scott were finally able to bring home their daughter from Guatemala. After what seemed like an eternity of waiting, endless prayers and boundless faith she is here!!! I had the pleasure of Miss. Tenley's company this past week. Carmen came over for Elijah and Tenley's first play date. I was so excited. My stomach was in knots in anticipation to meet this little angel who had touched my heart before she was even born,when Carmen was just 'pregnant on paper'. The day was a success! Elijah was a pretty good boy and Tenley was just a doll. I am so glad to have her in my extended family.

The haze of the last week continues

2008-01-19T20:36:00.000-07:00

For those of you who do not already know, I had major back surgery last week. I am doing really well, healing well, and in pretty good spirits. I have really really good friends. Not just people who have coffee with you, or would love to sit and hear gossip with you, but true friends. These few and amazing people who know who they are have made the past week of my life perfect. I have not had to once worry about the care of my son thanks to Grammy and Brooke. I have not had to bathe myself thanks to my wonderful husband and I have not had to be alone thanks to my Jessa, and my mother in law this past week. I just really want to thank everyone for thier prayers and support! I still have a really long journey ahead of me, but with the support system that I have, I know it will go very smoothly!

Sorry if you are grossed out easily, but I didn't think the picture was too bad, so I posted it anyway.

xoxo- love you all!

The "other man"

2008-01-10T19:38:00.000-07:00

So it's like this..........

I have a boyfriend.. I have for years. I am not sure that he knows that he is my boyfriend but I assure you that he is. My husband is aware of this other man, and he accepts it. His name is Regis Philbin. You can moan and groan all you want, but I love this man. I watch his show faithfully every weekday morning at 9 am. Every year they have a beautiful baby search on the show. This year I entered Elijah in it. I have been watching for his picture on the air everyday, but my Regis has failed me thus far. We may have to break up.

Tell me, all you faithful blog readers, how can this precious boy not be in the top ten???

I can't figure it out either. There is still time for Regis to redeem himself, but that time is running out very quickly.

No more candy!!!!

2008-01-04T17:59:00.000-07:00

Now that the Christmas season is over, we are starting to get back to the normal routine of things.

We had a fantastic Christmas! We all got new beds from Grammy and Pappy. Elijah got a new bedroom set! he is starting to sleep in his own room again! Hopefully it will be an easy transition for us.

Picasa Web Albums - Tiffany

2007-12-30T10:30:00.000-07:00

Picasa Web Albums - Tiffany

growing up fast

2007-12-05T13:04:00.000-07:00

It really seems like this past year has flown by! So much has happened and we are all still mostly intact! The fun never stops around our house these days. Elijah really learns something exciting everyday. I wish my patience was as neverending as his curiosity! He loves to be outside, playing in the snow. He will stand by the front door, opening and closing it over and over again, hoping that I will get dressed and take him out to play. It usually works, I am a sucker.